Juliet woke up, her heart heavy: Romeo is gone. But she got to pick up the pieces and be whole again. She reliased that life is a journey, not a guided tour. [Short Story,
Para 1 to be continued...]
I found the wisdom to accept things that I cannot change. I found the courage to laugh upon issues I don’t agree and to sail through life with a smile until the sea claim me whole.
Today 32 years ago, after a difficult labor, Mama gave birth to me. Today, a year ago, after a difficult labor, I gave birth to my son – Luqman Zain. Ah, the miracle of life is indeed overwhelming. I remember the operation teathre at DSH vividly.
Scene: Damansara Specialist Hospital, Labour Room 4
Date: May 3rd, 2006 (about 3 p.m.)
Dr Guna: [turning to Nurse Khairul Bariyah], “baby in distress, emergency c-section.Call Dr.Hilmi.”
Nurse KB swiftly left the labor room. 5 minutes later a serious looking anesthetic appeared with all his paraphernalia and two other nurses in tow. I have never been so scared in my entire life. My teeth were chattering like mad. Jefree signed some mysterious looking form. Truth be told, at that time, he could have signed anything in front of him! This is what I said to Dr. Hilmi in all seriousness I could gather:
Me: “Doctor, I am an extremely fearful person, I am really really scared, so please!” This what the audacious doctor said (actually padan lah muka I, trying to tell him what to do!)
Dr. Hilmi: “No matter how GOOD I am (oh really, how do I know that? I have never met you in my entire life my fried!), I can’t administer this, unless you cooperate. If you are scared, the baby could feel it, he’ll be distressed too (why must I hear this “distress” thing repeatedly?)”
Needless to say, Dr Hilmi couldn’t administer the epidural with me curled like a ball as I was shivering violently. He asked me to sit up, curve my back with Jefree holding on to my hands for dear life. The epidural went in finally. I was numbed from waist down in no time. My legs felt as heavy as the log. Nurse Khairul Bariyah and 2 other attendants wheeled me to the operation teather. Among the conversation that I could hear in the operation teather:-
Dr Hilmi: “something something at maximum level (must have been the drugs).”
Dr.Guna: “making the incision. Bla bla bla (incoherent speech, I swear I could hear him reprimanding a nurse, boy that was a scary).”
Me: “Sayang, what’s going on?” (looking at Jefree intensely)
Jefree: “Everything will be fine, nothing is going on” (yeah right! It wasn’t you that they are slicing up!).
Half an hour came and went. Then I heard Dr. Guna proclaimed “It’s a boy!” Jefree left me there and then (the nerve of this guy!) and rushed to Dr.Guna’s side. According to Jefree, Dr. Guna then cut the umbilical cord, handed Luqman to Dr. Musa the pediatrician. Dr. Musa came to my side, and said this “Elviza, this is your baby”.
There he was, crying on top of his lung, we was covered in a mud looking blood. Luqman Zain was born to me and Jefree at 4.16 p.m. on 3rd May 2006. Apgar test conducted by Dr. Musa and Azan was whispered to Luqman’s ears. I am now a mother. The sweet Dr.Guna came to my side, hold my hand and said “congratulation dear, he was a big boy, he felt heavy…” Dr. Guna, Dr. Guna, Dr. Guna…. I shall treasure your soft voice, your calm advice, your endearing touch. Words are scarce; I could not thank you enough. God bless you and thank you for bringing Luqman to our lives.
Dr. Hilmi;Okay, sorry for trying to tell you what to do. I am sure you are a good doctor after all.
Dr. Musa; you are in my eyes, the best pediatrician there is.
Nurse Khairul Bariyah: Thank you thank you thank you thank you.
To the father of my son; from this day on, no matter what the future holds, I will always love you because you gave me Luqman.
Luqman; You and I have a long way to go. We will chart this journey together. We will have our moments of difference, we will have a lot disagreements, we will laugh, we will cry together but you must always remember that I love you, more than life itself. Happy 1st Birthday Son.
Above all, I thank God for giving me this gift. No let me rephrase that, for giving me this treasure.